What If I Am Not a Good Mother?

What If I Am Not a Good Mother?

There were 10 of us. I came first and helped raise the rest. I did not want my mother’s life. I did not want to alternate between being pregnant and breastfeeding for twenty years, nor did I want the underlying lack of autonomy and choice that represented to me. Yet still, her legacy and example ran deep, and I was always sure that whatever edition of motherhood I might someday desire would come easily to me. I wasn’t prepared for what actually happened.

A Letter About Motherhood

A Letter About Motherhood

One of my close friends, not yet a mother, is subject to all sorts of insane text messages from me as I tell her just exactly what’s going on with my body, my mind, and my spirit as I navigate new motherhood. It’s worth it to tell you: she is planning on...
Do You Believe In Your Inner Creativity?

Do You Believe In Your Inner Creativity?

I have a confession: I’ve never thought of myself as a very creative person. When I was younger, and people would insist “but you’re so musical”, my response was always, “yes, but I’m a very technical musician”. Not a lot of value was placed on being creative in the...